IN THE HERE AND NOW

Music by Julien Vega
Lyrics by John Greaves & Julien Vega

I LIVE IN A KIND OF DREAM
BUT A DREAM THAT SEEMS QUITE REAL
AND I’M ON THE BRINK
BECAUSE WHAT I THINK’S OUT OF SYNCH
WITH WHAT I FEEL

BUT HEY I DON’T GIVE A DAMN
WHAT I THINK IS NOT WHAT I AM
GONNA SHED MY SKIN
AND I’M TRADING IN
EVERYTHING I’VE EVER BEEN

AND I AM NOT AFRAID
NOT A BIT CONCERNED
AND I’LL BE FORGETTING
MORE THAN I HAVE EVER LEARNED
SLIDE TOWARDS THE EDGE
STEP ACROSS THE LEDGE
ALL MY BRIDGES BURNED

TO BE IN THE HERE AND NOW
KNOWING HOW TO HEAR AND FEEL AND SEE
STEP OFF INTO SPACE
ISN’T THIS THE PLACE
I WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE?

There’s a place down the street

Where my friends congregate
And when we sit on those bar stools
We’re not alone
10 am the lights are on
Beer’s cold, the whiskey’s strong
And we’re drowning those memories
One by one

You can meet me at the idle hour
Where the juke box plays all those country songs
If you’re tryin’ to hang on

To a love that’s dead and gone
With too many reasons not to go back home

The neon lights are bright
Even tho it’s past midnight
And the band’s packed up and moved on
Stare at the clock on the wall
Bartender says last call
And I start missin’ her most of all

So, you can meet me at the idle hour
Where the juke box plays all those country songs
So if you’re tryin’ to hang on
To a love that’s dead and gone
With too many reasons not to go back home
Too many reasons not to go back home

I let you be into my mind
so i can feel you one more time I let you be into my heart
so i can feel you one last time
I can’t believe we use to walk along the beach I can’t believe we use to walk along
I can’t believe we use to walk along the beach I can’t believe we use to walk along

ES:

brilla el litio en la calle
no hay nadie vuelvo a casa
el semáforo brillante
y las luces apagadas
en la habitación a oscuras
la cara recién lavada
me he quitado el pintalabios
y espero sentada a tu llamada

pero nunca llega
tal vez sea todo culpa de esa chica nueva
a la que ves
con ese rollo francés
nadie se lo cree
he esperado mucho para volverte a ver

y cuando te he visto me has dejado de querer
que pena mas grande la que me haces padecer
padecer
padecer
padecer
la que tu me haces padecer

No sé que hacer desde ayer y ahora
mi alma es de la textura de un bote de gel
No sé que hacer desde ayer y ahora
mi alma es de la textura de un bote de gel

Te apareces en mis sueños
dices que te debo algo
pero no lo creo
siempre me haces partícipe de todos tus juegos
yo solo quiero mirar al sol en el recreo
volver a ser una niña para sufrir menos
para no perder el tiempo con tanto lamento
escuchar la última canción
de mañaneo

he encendido una vela para que no te aparezcas
aunque dejo la luz encendida y la puerta abierta
no es que no te quiera
es que ahora me quiero yo
como dice bunny ahora soy peor
he encendido una vela para que no te aparezcas
aunque dejo la luz encendida y la puerta abierta
no es que no te quiera
es que ahora me quiero yo
como dice bunny ahora soy peor

rolling with my ladies on the floor
singing baby baby drop that broad
is the same old song

y tal vez
vuelva a ver
esa luz que reflejé
ya no me incitas
no me necesitas
y mejor
y mejor
y mejor
y mejor
y mejor
y mejor
y mejor
y mejor y mejor y mejor, y mejor, y mejor…

y mejor



EN:

lithium shines in the street
there's no one I'm going home
the traffic light shining
and the lights off
in the darkened room
my face freshly washed
I've taken off my lipstick
and I sit and wait for your call

but it never comes
maybe it's all the fault of that new girl
the one you see
with that French vibe
no one believes it
I've waited a long time to see you again

and when I've seen you you've stopped loving me
what a great sorrow that you make me suffer
suffer
suffer
suffer
that you make me suffer

I don't know what to do since yesterday and now
my soul is the texture of a jar of gel
I don't know what to do since yesterday and now
my soul is the texture of a jar of gel

You appear in my dreams
You say I owe you something
but I don't believe it
you always make me a part of all your games
I just want to look at the sun at playtime
to be a little girl again and suffer less
not to waste time with so much regret
to listen to the last song
at sunrise

I've lit a candle so you won't show up
although I leave the light on and the door open
it's not that I don't love you
it's that now I love me
as bunny says now I'm worse
I've lit a candle so you won't show up
although I leave the light on and the door open
it's not that I don't love you
it's that now I love me
as bunny says now I'm worse

rolling with my ladies on the floor
singing baby baby drop that broad
is the same old song

and maybe
I'll see again
that light that I reflected
you don't urge me on no more
you don't need me no more
and better
and better
and better
and better
and better
and better
and better
and better and better and better and better and better and better and better...

and better

ES:

tengo las horas contadas con esta nena
y la tortura del recuerdo ya se inclina en mi cabeza
y es que no veas
las cartas que juega
se las guarda detrás de la oreja

bailando en la plaza con la niña
van par de litronas pero ella va tan fina
con sus pantalones rotos justo en la rodilla
con su cigarrillo y sus pestañas postizas
yo es que voy sin prisa
yo es que voy sin prisa
pero reconozco que contigo nunca he sido mu tranquila
me pierdo con los nombres que han pasao' después de ti
con todos esos verdes en Pinar de Chamartín

me acuerdo de ti nena me acuerdo de ti
me acuerdo de ti nena me acuerdo de ti
llevo preocupada desde que te conocí
estoy anestesiada con tu saliva de anís

y siempre que salgo por las noches de Madrid
te acabo escribiendo algún mensaje

para ti para ti siempre hay uno para ti
para el fuego de tus labios disfrazados de carmin
tu pelo rapado y tus ojos medio green
para las noches tocando la guitarra junto a mi
para ti para ti siempre hay uno para ti
te dedico mis versitos favoritos del Joaquín
te dedico todas las fotos en las que me haces reír
te dedico hasta el romero de las rosas del jardin

que ya no puedo mas
dame un break no te portes mal
dime si me vas a llamar
dime si me vas a llamar
que ya no puedo mas
dame un break no te portes mal
dime si me vas a llamar
deja la tortura pa' Alejandro Sanz

y no te des por aludida
que no va por ti, te lo juro por mi vida
tengo la saudade aquí en la tripa metidita
será la pastilla que mordimos aquel dia
tu mirada es ácida como los pica pica
tu piel es el paper del tabaco que te lias
eres el sabor amargo de una mora fría
se te acaba el tiempo y ahora el mío desperdicias
me arde la retina de ver tanta tontería
tengo toas' las medias rotas de todas tus chinas
también me has quemado el corazón con tanta chispa
bonita, tienes que ser más decidida
aunque la tonta sea yo porque te lo permita
aunque lo máximo que hago es marcarme unas rimas
aunque cuando esté delante tuya me derrita
nena, se mas comprensiva

que ya no puedo mas
dame un break no te portes mal
dime si me vas a llamar
dime si me vas a llamar
que ya no puedo mas
dame un break no te portes mal
dime si me vas a llamar
dime si me vas a llamar
dime si me vas a llamar
dime si me vas a llamar
dime si me vas a llamar
deja la tortura pa' Alejandro Sanz

dime si me vas a llamar

dímelo ma
dímelo




EN:

my hours are nearly due with this girl
and the torture of the memory is leaning in my head
and you can't see
the cards she plays
she keeps them behind her ear

dancing in the square with the girl
they go with a couple of litronas but she goes so refined
with her pants torn right above the knee
with her cigarette and her false eyelashes
I'm in no hurry
I'm in no hurry
but I recognise that with you I've never been very calm
I get lost with the names that have passed after you
with all those greens in Pinar de Chamartin

I remember you baby I remember you
I remember you baby I remember you
I've been worried since I met you
I'm numb with your aniseed saliva

and whenever I go out at night in Madrid
I end up writing you a message

for you for you there is always one for you
for the fire of your lips disguised as carmine
your shaved hair and your half green eyes
for the nights playing the guitar next to me
for you for you there's always one for you
I dedicate to you my favorite verses of Joaquin
I dedicate to you all the pictures in which you make me laugh
I dedicate to you even the rosemary of the roses in the garden

I can't take it anymore
give me a break don't misbehave
tell me if you'll call me
tell me if you'll call me
I can't take it anymore
give me a break don't misbehave
tell me if you'll call me
leave the torture for Alejandro Sanz

and don't take it personal
It' s not about you I swear it on my life
I've got the saudade here in my gut
Maybe it's the pill that we bit that day
your gaze is acidic like the pica pica
your skin is the paper of the tobacco that you roll
you're the bitter taste of a cold blackberry
you're running out of time and now you're wasting mine
my retina burns from seeing so much nonsense
I've got all the socks torn from all your stones
you've also burnt my heart with so much sparkle
beautiful, you have to be more determined
even though I'm the fool because I let you do it
even though the most I do is to score me some rhymes
even though when I'm in front of you I melt
baby, be more understanding

I can't take it anymore
give me a break don't misbehave
tell me if you'll call me
tell me if you'll call me
I can't take it anymore
give me a break don't misbehave
tell me if you'll call me
tell me if you'll call me
tell me if you'll call me
tell me if you'll call me
tell me if you'll call me
leave the torture for Alejandro Sanz

tell me if you'll call me

tell me ma
tell me

ES:

estoy cansada y no lo entiendo
intento expresarlo con palabras
y al final salen bostezos

el miedo
de verme en un espejo
y disociar entre la imagen
y entre lo que en si proyecto

casi ni veo cine
desecho mis deseos
ya no hago lo que quiero
porque nunca tengo tiempo
y me lamento
y lo único pienso
es que me come la ciudad
y que me enreda el pelo el viento

pensé que amar sería suficiente
pero me siento sola y peleada con mi mente
no creo en mi talento como antes
no soy la que era antes
no soy suficiente
o soy demasiado grande
no soy nada fuerte
o es que tengo mucho aguante
no recuerdo nada lo que es sentirme bien
con el alma llena como un niño
que empieza a correr

pinto todo de color pastel para creer
que algún día la ternura me va a devolver
todo lo que el tedio y lo que el daño me han quitado
las horas de un sueño malgastado
pinto todo de color pastel para creer
que algún día la ternura me va a devolver
todo lo que el tedio y lo que el daño me han quitado
las horas de sueño que las noches me han robado
las horas de sueño que las noches me han robado
las horas de sueño que las noches me han robado

tal vez el camino equivocado
sea siempre el que me ha conquistado
ya tengo el enigma descifrado
el tiempo se pasa muy despacio

no busco na' de nadie
la suerte no me sobra pero siempre se comparte
escribo versos con punto y a parte
porque un punto y seguido implica motivos pa' seguir adelante
pero tranquilas que aquí mando yo
el agua limpia todo y últimamente está lloviendo un montón
no quiero sentir ni un remordimiento nunca más
la sensación que mas me pesa es la de recordar

algún día estaré bien lo puedo asegurar
sentirme a mí misma es suficiente pa' avanzar
igual que el pie que se siente a sí mismo al andar
igual que dos enamorados dentro de un maizal
escribo para mí y para reafirmar
que puede que algún día este cigarro se apague sin más
y no lo entenderás por no haber querido preguntar

ya no te sientas mal por mí me he cambiado de piel
a veces tu recuerdo incluso me sabe a miel
he estado imaginándome que es lo que quiero ser
y solo busco ser más gata que nunca y correr
y correr y correr y correr
y correr


pinto todo de color pastel para creer
que algún día la ternura me va a devolver
todo lo que el tedio y lo que el daño me han quitado
las horas de un sueño malgastado
pinto todo de color pastel para creer
que algún día la ternura me va a devolver
todo lo que el tedio y lo que el daño me han quitado
las horas de sueño que las noches me han robado



EN:

I'm tired and I don't understand
I try to put it into words
and in the end yawns come out

the fear
of seeing myself in a mirror
and dissociate between the image
and between what I project

I almost don't watch movies
I discard my desires
I no longer do what I want
because I never have time
and I lament
and the only thing I think
is that the city eats me up
and that the wind is tangling my hair

I thought that loving would be enough
but I feel lonely and at odds with my mind
I don't believe in my talent like before
I'm not what I used to be
I'm not enough
or I'm too big
I'm not strong at all
or is it that I have too much endurance
I don't remember what it's like to feel good
with a soul as full as a child
who starts to run

I paint everything in pastel colors to believe
that someday tenderness will return to me
all that boredom and hurt have taken away from me
the hours of a wasted dream
I paint everything in pastel colors to believe
that someday tenderness will return to me
all that boredom and hurt have taken away from me
the hours of sleep that the nights have stolen from me
the hours of sleep that the nights have stolen from me
the hours of sleep that the nights have stolen from me

maybe the wrong path
is always the one that has conquered me
I already have the enigma deciphered
time goes by very slowly

I'm not looking for anything from anyone
luck is not enough for me but I always share it
I write verses with a full stop, new paragraph
because a full stop, no new paragraph implies reasons to keep going on
but don't worry I'm in charge here
water cleans everything and lately it's been raining a lot
I don't want to feel a single remorse anymore
the feeling that weighs me down the most is the one of remembering

someday I'll be alright I can assure you
feeling myself is enough to move forward
just like the foot that feels itself when walking
just like two lovers inside a cornfield
I write for myself and to reaffirm
that maybe someday this cigarette will go out just like that
and you won't understand because you didn't want to ask

don't feel bad for me anymore I've changed my skin
sometimes your memory even tastes like honey to me
I've been imagining what I want to be
and I'm just trying to be more cat than ever and run
and run and run and run and run
and run

I paint everything in pastel colors to believe
that someday tenderness will return to me
all that boredom and hurt have taken away from me
the hours of a wasted dream
I paint everything in pastel colors to believe
that someday tenderness will return to me
all that boredom and hurt have taken away from me
the hours of sleep that the nights have stolen from me

ES:

tengo la mirada en el suelo
porque tiemblo si te veo
cada paso que doy es palo de ciego
cada día sin ti es morder el hielo
tengo la mirada en el suelo
pero cuando las cruzamos es volver al día primero
y al cigarro consumiéndose en los dedos
tu buscas perderme pero yo me quedo

pienso cada día
pienso cada noche
pienso en tus mensajes
y en la rabia de ya no sentir tu roce
y escuchar
todo el rato tu nombre
y volver hasta el principio
por miedo a que se me borre
el recuerdo es un arma de doble filo
te llevo siempre en el pecho
pero duele como un tiro
y no puedo más
si me rompes por lo menos dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad

ojalá tenerte y que me quieras de verdad
que tu mente se enderezca y que me sepas valorar
que tu carita de mala no me hubiese hecho caer
que las charlas en el parque no me dejen del revés
que la calle no te mate
que no te vea caer
que tus decisiones fueran hojas de papel
pa' podértelas romper
pa' podértelas romper

no quiero puntos de vista
quiero volver a nacer
no quiero que me comprendas
ni estar fuera de mi piel
quiero sentirme las manos
en la playa de ahí arriba
sentir tus labios con la sal en las encías
no perdono a los cobardes
y no me perdono a mí
por no saber alejarme
cuando me quise morir
pero que penumbra hubiese sentido
si a ti en la vida no te hubiera conocido

te elijo primero
te elijo primero
siempre fuiste tu
siempre fuiste tu
te elijo primero
te elijo primero
el daño es certero
pero como tú
pero como tú
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad
dame un beso de verdad

si me rompes por lo menos dame un beso de verdad


EN:

I have my eyes on the ground
because I tremble if I see you
every step I take is a blind man's stick
every day without you is biting the ice
my eyes are on the ground
but when we cross them it's like going back to day one
and the cigarette burning in my fingers
you seek to lose me but I stay

I think every day
I think every night
I think of your messages
and in the rage of no longer feeling your touch
and hear
your name all the time
and go back to the beginning
for fear of being erased
the memory is a double-edged sword
I always carry you in my chest
but it hurts like a shot
and I can't take it anymore
if you break me at least give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss

I wish I could have you and that you really love me
that your mind would straighten up and that you would know how to value me
that your bad face had not made me fall down
that the chats in the park don't turn me upside down
that the street doesn't kill you
that I don't see you fall
that your decisions were sheets of paper
so that I can tear them up
so that I can tear them up

I don't want points of view
I want to be born again
I don't want you to understand me
nor to be out of my skin
I want to feel my hands
on the beach up there
feel your lips with the salt on my gums
I don't forgive cowards
and I don't forgive myself
for not knowing how to walk away
when I wanted to die
but what a darkness I would have felt
if I had never met you in my life

I choose you first
I choose you first
it was always you
it was always you
I choose you first
I choose you first
the damage is certain
but like you
but like you
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss
give me a real kiss

if you break me at least give me a real kiss

Wearing me out Numbing Steeling
Fading
A shadow of ourselves Appeasing
Misleading
Beating life from our souls
And I don’t know Where I’m going Know I’m bleeding And I don’t know Where I’m reaching These feelings
I’d do anything
To believe ya
To believe ya
I’ll give everything
Cos I’ve been here too long Though I’ve held tight and let go I’ll find you
I’ll find you I’ll find you
Hounding down Pushing
Heart is Greying
Ageing in it’s shell Taunting
Tempting
Breaking buildings in town
And with patience I’ll find you I’ll practice persistence
I’ll find you
And with patience I’ll find you I’ll practice persistence
I’ll find you
Never, never, never gonna go back Your tenderness
Consuming
Though I’ve worn out
The cynical clothes
That covered my bones
I’m never gonna go back
Never, never, never gonna go back Your tenderness
Consumes me
Though I’ve held tight
And let go
I’ll find you
I’ll find you

Rat a tap tap;
Oh don’t you come and ask;
Am I a coming back?
The sky has gone black on us.

Don’t you weep –
Blame myself for these things
Known I was stronger than he –
And all you weaklings knew it.

Toodle loo;
They all abandoned you
One bruised and another screwed,
But I was the only loved.

Oh, Hannah Leah …
I was the only love.

Keep that bed.
Now brother, keep that rug.
Lord knows I was given so much –
And the devil keeps me fed.

On the wall. On the stove –
And in the blank book you draw –
There are signs of Hannah Leah
There are signs of our love.

Oh, Hannah Leah …
There are signs of love.

On a black, blue night
I go a wandering:
Out over Houston –
Along Avenue A.
Hannah Leah
On Avenue A.

Ku Klux Klan;
There’s evil in every man.
Come love her when you can –
And see about Hannah Leah.

Switchblade, Switchblade, my lovely friend.
I held you so close we two till the bitter end.
One pierce, one cut was one was one too much.
For you, my love: I offer my blood.
Pen knife, pen knife – c'mon All, cheer!
For the words we sing conjures tears.
One word. A mutter with such restrain.
For me, my love, scribe me your pain?
Stiletto, my stiletto!
Will I, may I? See you again tomorrow?
One on one – We two in your room.
For we need not be bride or groom.
One pierce, one cut was one too much.
For you, my love: I offer my blood.
My blood.
My blood.
My blood.